I feel out of sorts.
There's something terribly wrong with me.
Really.
And I don't know what it is.
I don't feel hungry,
don't feel like talking (amazing)
I feel heavy
and terribly depressed.
Something's weighing down on me.
But I don't know what.
I feel dead.

PROOF THAT LOVE=CRAP.
extracted from :

http://www.nygirlofmydreams.com/
http://gawker.com/5029831/tragic-ny-girl-of-my-dreams-breakup-confirmed
http://www.rd.com/living-healthy/what-they-did-for-love-true-love-stories/article51952.html

NYGIRL OF MY DREAMS.

What:
This guy(Patrick Moberg) fell in love with this girl(Camille Hayton) when he saw her on the subway. He was in a dilemma over whether to approach her or to forget it. Then, just as he was about to approach her, she got off the subway. Already obsessed with her, he went home, created a website called http://www.nygirlofmydreams.com/ and waited for some kind soul to help bring them together. And duh, people flocked there and blablabla.... He found her.

Picture of them: (I think the guy's cute;D)

Sweet huh.
BUT GUESS WHAT.
he leaves another illustration on his blog [link].
And then reports on magazines and all gossip stuff reveal that they have broken up.
Camille, that darn lucky girl became such a BITCH.

Read this:
from:[link]

"I was [a diner] last night [in the East Village], and this new waitress came up. She told us it was her first day, and she had an Australian accent, high waisted corduroys, and daisies in her hair (which was pinned up in two Austrian braids a la Lauren Conrad). My friend was like, "That girl is SO cute," and I was like, 'I think it's the Subway Girl!'"

So I asked her and she turned all red and said, "Oh, that was SUCH a long time ago."

Then the waitress next to her was like, "What do you mean, The Subway Girl," and [Camille] gave her a look like, "Ask me about it and die."

Alas, I didn't have the guts to ask if she was still with the cloying guy - you know what my mom says, "Don't fuck with the chef" - and I think that applies to the waitress too.

So they only lasted 2MONTHS.

And she was supposed to be his dream girl.

If you ask me, I think he was really dumb cos his effort went to waste and she was a bitch for being so nonchalant about it. I mean, it was really sweet of him. SHE'S SO FAMOUS SHE EVEN GOT A PHOTOSHOOT IN A MAGAZINE.

so Camille Hayton should kiss her freaking ass and thank that dumbass guy for making her one of the most famous person wanted. Everyone was looking out for her.

And this proves that Love is just a feeling of attraction. Maybe its just me, but I think that you have to know someone well to love them.

Love at first sight is just an attraction. What Crap.

best of luck.

I know she'll be moved by you one day.

If you really love her,

I know she'll love you back one day too.

11:58 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

argh.
class chalet is on now...
:D
but I'm at home... waiting for my dad to bring me there -.-"
alamak. we wasted loads of water yesterday!
Water fight!

.... and surprising things happened.
ah. I was so so shocked.

And we played some dumb 7minutes in heaven.
Wa lan eh. Its either you go into a crammed toilet with a guy for 3minutes(cos 7 minutes too long)
or you kiss the guy on the cheek or the guy kisses you on the cheek.
Actually supposed to be quite fun la!
then some like very "shy" .. then drag drag drag not fun liao.
And chenghao and I were pretending to say stupid things in the toilet..
I was like " CHENG HAO! BU YAO TUO YI FU!!!!"

After that, spin the bottle.
The dare was to have a person of the opposite gender to bite the piece of potato chip in your mouth.
-.-"

hahahah.
butttttt. despite all this.
I AM SO HESITANT TO GO BACK THERE.
.
.
.
.
.
V
the start of something new.
Hope it works out.

8:51 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

Last Day Of School.
I. Shall. Miss. 2JT. Terribly.
Pictures, And then some comments on my class...

People. I WILL MISS YOU. (I've left out some.. cos nth much to say..)

Abigail: Sweeet Sweeeet Peanut Butter:D I shall miss you loads when you go to TJC! Ahhhh. We won't be able to stand beside each other during flag raising anymore!

Rachel: Manga woman. Teach me how to draw such nice things!?!?! ;D you look like dawn yeoh!

HuiMin/JIAMIN: HAHAHAHAH. Duanehbu. Best-est Girlfs everrrr:D 5201314! DARLINGGG.

Clara: PIGGGGG! My face is a mirror, as you can see uh. :D Heh. XIAOZHUFANATIC.

Joey: CLASS TREASURER/DUCK. :D stay drama-mama-ish and crazy!

Sheryl: YAY BAOBEI! I LOVE YOUUUUUU! Bestbestbestbestest Girlfs! Lolz. lovelovelove.

ChewErn: Hehz. Thank you for your (half)card! :D sooooo cute sia. Hahahah. Rabbit :B

Julian: ANOTHER MANGA WOMAN. The creator of the japanese craze! Influencing rachel and abigail... :D LOVEE

HuiXuan: Chicken! I love you! LOADS! Love is blind.. duh. (scratch that) besties uh!

Regine: MY ELFFFFF! :D SWEETHEART! WO AI NI! (I'm not les!) Besties okkkkkkk. :D;D

WenHui: Alamak. Monkey! hahaz. joking la. MY DEAREST NICEST BESTie. ;D

Claire; Qinaide! Stop growing already! Hope you can uh, fufil your dream and become a *coughcough* model!

Ester: Heeee. Guides tgt uhhhh! :D I LOVE YOU BESTIE. Stay genius-y and smart and lovable!

SiLi: Bus 31! :D Hehez. Stay hardworking ok!

Aaron: I WILL MISS YOU LOADS. REALLY. ALOT. hahhahaahhah. DON"T WORRY. Going to VJC to find you is an easy feat for a genius like me. So you will see me... in your dreams uh. DON'T FORGET 2JT WHEN YOU LEAVE.

JiaWei: Aiyo, last time so cute now become so beng-ish le! Joking la. Stay funny ok, joker!

Martin: MA TIANNNNN! Next year tuition still can see you, so I don't care! :D

Terry: YO. Stay uh... (Nothing good to say.. joking) cute and black uhs! Call me if anything ok..

GUOK: HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. nothing to say. Actually I don't really notice that you have BO or anything ley. Good news, huh.

Samuel: MILKY! In spite of everything.. YOU ARE SO FUNNY(and sarcastic) HAHAHAH. Waaa, you suddenly improve alot sia. Maths suddenly so pro.

ChengHao: OR LU LU! You very pro sia, everything also good! :D

Other People leaving:

Tsang Sheng: SENIORRRRR! SO long never call you that already! Haha. Anw, Jiayou for your O's!

Shawn: Noob la you. Better get all A's or... hahahahahha. Jiayou ok!

FengMao: hahahahah. CrazyCat! Hmm.. Better work hard hor.. See you like so slack like that!

ChuBin: Uh. Sad to see you go.. Hmm.. hope you'll like JC life... (okay, this is awkward)

in spite of everything,

2JT owns!

5:38 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

Argh.
Tomorrow's the last day of school.
):
Gonna miss so many people!
especially 2JT.
I won't miss Sheryl, JiaMin and Claire though.
Hahah. Cos we'll be going out often righttttt!

Kbox@ KatongMall tomorrow.
(kinda forced to go)

And. I realise that I have many many new rumours suddenly.
What with... BOWL(wongweijie) and then the what hua hwai or somethingzx.
Before that got Marcus Chin and dno who.
WTH. Then today yuxiang(joking)

I AM SO SIANZX.
I am saving alot of $$$!
:D I'm gonna get that 1100 words book from Shawn THE NOOBBBBBB.
Cos somebody's phone has been off for forever.

ARGH.
I wanna go out with yupei.
But what if it becomes awkward?
Blegh,
and I still have to emcee DramaNight on 30Oct.
Thats not bad,
but MISS YEE and MISS LOW are in charge of that day!
Imagine..
"Please pull up your socks" -Miss Low
"Do you still remember Dara? The Clay Marble" -Miss Yee

....
Anw.
Tsang Sheng, Shawn, Feng Mao, Yilin, guides seniors..

JIAYOU FOR O's!
you can do it!

But I love you guys loads,
no matter what.
Today it felt like we were the best of friends again.
I wonder how long it will last.
Different Classes should mean new friends.

6:00 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

friends.
what are they for?
I consider someone I've talked to before a friend.

Good Friends should see the good side of you.
At least, thats what I think they should do.

I thought you guys were the best friends I never had.
I thought you guys liked me for who I am.
But it seems that you guys only see my bad points,
w/o bothering to see the positive side of me.
And when people asked me whether I liked you guys,
I said yes.
I believed that.
But today,
I realise,
that its already in your head that I am nothing but irritating.
Its wrong for me to get angry.
But you guys can get angry at me whenever you guys want.
Really?
you think its me who has the attitude problem,
but think about it.
who likes to be ew-ed at and criticized.?
Even if you can't see how mean you are to me,
put yourself in the shoes of me.
For others can easily see
that perhaps our friendship
is not as strong as it should be.
I hope and wish that we'll remain best friends.
But until you guys learn to accept me,
its best my secrets stay within me.

6:42 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

Plaza Sing with darling and baobei yesterday.
;D
we saw !!!!!!! and ******
we also saw HUIXUAN! :D

Tmr going vivo I THINK.

and I WILL BE GOING OUT WITH MY YP LUH.
YAY.
I'm gonna learn how to cycle.
but yp scared i fall down.
then say what " later your parents scold me for not taking care of you"
hahahahahaha. yupei is super uber funny la
:D\

AND SHERYL LEE.
YOU ARE GONNA DIE TMR.
WITH VARRICK AND HUIMIN

8:41 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

boredboredbored.

ARGH,
MY RESULTS ARE SO SADDENING.

my english. A2 gone liao. B3 NOW.
science -67
math-64.5
Lit-49/75
Geog- 70
Art-71
Chinese- 54 -.-"
History tmr then get..

SO YOU SEE. I AM SCREWED UP.

andandand. PEOPLE! GO drama night on 30 october! :D

6:44 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

okay.
I am so sad over my English.

SWOOSH

my A2 just flew away.

Awwwww.
I am so so so sad.
THIS IS THE CRAPPIEST MARK I'VE GOT IN MY LIFE(for english la)

but

after much tears, one bowl of noodles, ice-cream, walking around and cheering up,

I'VE GOTTEN OVER IT.

;D

I'VE FI

2:30 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

ripped from rengtian( the super tall irritating guy)

Name 20 people you can think of right now, don't read the questions until you've named the 20people.
1.Sheryl
2.Hui/Jia Min
3.YuPei
4.Claire
5.Regine
6.Terry
7.Ester
8.WenHui
9.HuiXuan
10.Xinping
11.QuanLi
12.Tsang Sheng
13.ChuBin
14.Yip Cheng Hao
15.WeiJie
16.Martin
17.Ailynn
18.DaoQin
19.Colleen
20.Him

How did you meet 14? Chenghao
2JUSTICE

What would you do if you never met 1?Sheryl
... nothing will happen.. joking. I cannot imagine life w/o her! And I will not not meet her...

What if 9 and 20 dated? HuiXuan and Him
I will murder HuiXuan... and make sure she becomes roasted chicken. OOPS. DIE

What if 6 and 17 dated?Terry and Ailynn
NO WAY. EW. ailynn not so blind! xD

Describe 3. Yupei
my laogong:D he is so shy and adorable and and and and and <3!

Is 8 attractive? Wenhui
If you find hair nice.... LOL. YES SHE IS THE HAWWWWTEST. :D

Ｄescribe 7. ESTER
SMART AND MY LOVE!

Do you know any of 12's family members? Tsang Sheng
Noooo.

What would you do if 18 confesses to you that she likes you? DaoQin
er, she won't do that!

What language does 15 speaks? WeiJie
African Language plus I-am-a-stupid-nooob language. :D

Who is 9 going out with? HuiXuan
ME! and maybe Martin... the rooster what. JOKING JOKING! HUIXUAN DUN KILL ME!

how old is 16? Martin
14..

When was the last time you spoke to 13? ChuBin
NEVER. (am I supposed to be sad?)

Who is 2's fav band/singer? Hui/Jia Min
ER. the SUPER EWWWWWW jay chou. :D JOKING

Would you ever date 4? Claire
hmmm. she's tall and manly... but stilll.... NONONONONO!

Would you ever date 1?Sheryl
If I date her, I will become the manly one. NO!

Is 19 single? Colleen
Yes... anyone wants her number?

What is 10's last name? XinPing
HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO. Ho.

Would you ever be in a relationship with 11? QuanLi
er.NO! EWWWWW. joking!

School of 3? YuPei
Riverside

Where does 6 live? Terry
er. Pasir Ris. BUT HE SHOULD MOVE TO GEYLANG

What is your favourite thing of 5? Regine
SHE'S SOOOOO CUTE!

Have you ever seen 2 naked? Hui/ Jia Min

HAHAHAHHA. YES! She has really big boobs. :D

5:56 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

WILD WILD WET
was not as fun as before. but proved to be uh.... fruitful?

MAIN EVENT

some monfort sec boys were splashing water at us.
I went up to scold them.
sort of played around with them.
they asked for our numbers.
TADAHHHHH. the end.

oh yes. I scolded some guy for splashing water at me and got scolded by sheryl bcos she was worried i would get into 'trouble' BLEH. WHO GIVES A SHIT
HAHHAHAHAHAH
i'm crazy. yes.

I LOVE HUIMIN AND SHERYL ALRIGHT!

:D swensens and neoprints too. :D

PICTURE TIME
i'm afraid they are like, not rotated correctly

3:37 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

oh and i heard my big face is on quanli's blog.

I think its going to be on sheryl's and claire's too.

awwww. they love me too much.
I'm so pretty they gotta post UNGLAM pics of me.

but i dun mind cos i'm not glam.
HAHHAHAHAHAH

sheryl, i'm gonna give you that face again.

TAYQUANLI: YOU ARE GOING TO DIE ON31~ (evil laugh)

4:30 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

exams are like, finally, over.
:D

so many things to do, so little time.
I want to watch my anime, but my speakers seem to be spoiled so i have to stick with manga for now... not that i mind, actually.

and special A is really nice to read!

Going to www tmr, for late celebration of my birthday! :D
andandand, i'm going out with yupei during the hols! He says he'll make time cos that stupid basketball cca got training almost everyday:D hee &secret.

:D love.

My breath comes in gasps.
Its so unfair.
How can you blame me when its your face that causes me to feel this way?
When I'm with you, my heart skips a beat.
And I can feel the rest of its pumping echoing within.

4:24 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

Thank you guys, for everything.

Though it often seems that I'm getting pushed around, I know its really not that way.
I love you guys loads, for everything, the sacrifices you guys have made...
And for bearing with my non-stop chatter.

Really, really, I don't think I have better friends.
Its the first time someone called at 12am to sing me a song,
the first time some one sent me over 80 birthday messages
the first time friends make such a fuss over my birthday.

its the best birthday ever.
and only because I have girlfriends like you.

HUI(JIA) MIN AND SHERYL LEE AND everyone else.
<3

12:31 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

OKAY.
I think this is the best birthday I ever had.

THANK YOU!!!

Wait. Let me laugh first.
HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

okay, the Best Birthday Celebrater award goes to..(drum roll)
....
.......
.........
............
SHERYL LEE
...........
Hah. 80 plus DIFFERENT birthday messages(heng you got unlimited), 2 countdowns(before and after), pending present and being my best friend(includes huimin). BEAT THAT.

CHUA HUI/JIA MIN :D byebye birthday countdown, pending present and being my best friend too:D

CLAIRE TEO. :D COUNTDOWN, FRIEND, PP! :D:D:D

Thank you HuiXuan and Wenhui for the pencilbox and card.. SO CUTE.

QuanLi for your (arriving on Monday) present plus midnight sms. :)

Tsang Sheng for your present, super funny card plus sms! :D:D:D Thank you alot!

TERRY CHANG. for scaring me with your 17 birthday messages. ( I thought 17 different people remembered me! Happy for nothing... JKJK)

Regine for your birthday sms! :D and your pending pres and for being my dearest, sweetheart elf!

AARON! sorry for forgeting you!THANKS FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY SMS!

XINPING. My dearest laopo for remembering me!
XD

ABIGAIL LEONG. for wishing me happy birthday!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

KEXIN. for remembering my birthday. FRIENDS FOREVER:D

SHAWN LIM. don't know if it counts... but for sms-ing me on 3rd October instd...

DEONH, PHYLLIS, CHANG JING, ?(random guy I dno) for friendster-ing(?) me happy birthday!

TIFFANY for the SUPER SHUAI WUZUN MIRROR THING!

YEOST. happy birthday wish, and wanting to celebrate it. PERVERT. :) joking.

EVERYBODY ELSE. for now knowing my birthday is on 0410.and regretting you didn't wish me happy birthday.... (jkjk)

well.... have I left anybody out?
Sorry if I did.....

BUT I REALLY THINK I LOVE BEING FOURTEEN:D

11:39 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun

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http://www.nygirlofmydreams.com/
http://gawker.com/5029831/tragic-ny-girl-of-my-dreams-breakup-confirmed
http://www.rd.com/living-healthy/what-they-did-for-love-true-love-stories/article51952.html